WeChat

I refused to use smart phone until last year's September. There were far too many reasons why. One of the main reason was that I didn't have the patience to write sms on the touch screen. I was not good in using the sense of my finger and so it took such a long time for me to sms. (I tried on my girls smart phone, didn't went well). I was so comfortable with my old buddy, Nokia 3310. Simple and easy. Secondly, I was afraid that I would get addicted to the games. Thirdly, the same as the second one...



Then I was totally sold for smart phone after I received a birthday present from my cousin brother, Johnny. He gave me a Samsung Ace for my 45 year's old birthday present before my departure back to Sweden. He wanted me to kill the time at the airport by learning all the functions in that shining  new toy with a nice white outfit.

Today I am totally addicted to this new toy! Playing games, being busy body at Facebook, Instagram, upploading my photos. Whatever bad and good habit you can get when you have a smart phone. Johnny introduced me WeChat in December last year. He said we don't need to text/sms "dao ban si", meaning we don't have to take such  a long time to key in, it was fun just leave a voice message on WeChat.  (Err..Johnny and I are almost the same age, so we are not like the young generation, can text hundred and thousands of sms per day in a fast speed).

Well, WeChat has became part of my communication way with my relatives in Malaysia. We don't have to spend money on telephone bills as the old time. We can "talk" to each other at anytime. Just leave a voice message. For exemple, like Chloe left me a message in WeChat in her cute soft voice two days ago. The voice message was recorded in a few parts. They made that evening a happy day. The only part that upset me a little bit was that I didn't know how to answer her last question. I didn't want to make any promise when I didn't even know what the answer was going to be.. Well, let enjoy this cute little girl's adorable message instead :)

"Qing ping yi yi, I received your letter already. Thank you very much."
"I like the sticker very much."
I read for Ah Ma. I read the whole letter for Ah Ma."
 I know how to read."
"Qing Ping yi yi, you said Ah Ku so cute ah?" (the she was laughing and giggling)
"Qute meh? So fat already!"
"Like Kung Fu Panda!"
"Qing Ping yi yi, ni ji shi yao hui lai?" ("when are you coming back" in Mandarin)

I totally recommend this WeChat! Tried it, Used it, loved it, still using and loving it!  

无题

几个月前在一个小镇Härryda Kommun的小图书馆里，看到这么一块美丽的木雕笑容。忍不住一定要知道如果我左看右看它的时候，那笑容是不是还是一样呢？

Chloe's letter

Two months ago I received a letter from my niece, Chloe. You can see she wrote it beautifully with patience.

She is a mature and cheerful 6 years old girl who loves Hello Kitty. I am having bad feeling not replying her letter earlier.

 I am like a typically adult's attitude in this modern world , always have something to do with the  social live and routine stuff, and keep on delaying my reply to her. Her mom said she is always very very happy to receive letters from me. So, today, a Saturday with no bookings, I don't have to go work earlier. I told myself this afternoon after I woke up - Today have to reply Chloe's letter and I did it!

Her beautiful and neat handwriting kind of giving this aunt a little bit of pressure. I have to write the same way she did, have to set up a good example too, you know :). Tomorrow I will go out and find something with Hello Kitty again. I want her to put on a big smile on her face when she opens my letter next week. :). Love you, Chloe!

Swinging Mood

Why time has to pass by so quickly? It is so fast that sometimes you don't even has enough time to take a deep breath to deal with your endless variations of mood. Especially a person like me that don't really fully use up my 24 hours, don't really like to schedule every single thing I do everyday. Please don't get me wrong though, I am in the matter of fact a 95% puncture person. (Sometimes that 5% is not controlled by me due to other person, or traffic).
I am just a kind of arbitrary person. When my personal stuff is concerned, I am just doing things impulsively than planning two or three months ahead, well, this was also part of the reason why I ended up in Sweden. If I have thought twice or many times, I might have stayed back in Malaysia for good instead.

However I have been very good in planning my time last week. It was a very busy week, and also a mood swinging week. One funeral and one wedding in the same week. A sentimental person like me didn't really had enough time to deal with the mood changing.

Sadly my sister in law's mother, who I have known her for over 15 years passed away on the 4th of May. In Sweden it normally takes 2 weeks for the preparation of holding a funeral. So in grieving over this beloved elderly's death, at the same time I was excited over one of my good Malaysian friend, Agnes, her son, Jeffrey's wedding. My Malaysian group and my girls were so excited and have been waited patiently for Jeffrey's big day which was already planned and date-fixed one year ago!

So, I was so worry that the funeral would have been fall on the same day as Jeffrey's wedding day. Then I would have to choose which one to attend. If I attended the funeral then I no longer could go to the wedding due to the Chinese superstitious since both families (sister in law and my good friend) are Chinese.
Thank goodness it was not the same day but still in the same week. That was good so I didn't have to make a choice! (I hate making choices although we always have to make choices everyday in life)

The funeral brought back all my memory about my mom's funeral last Thursday. The mourning atmosphere filled the church  among my sister in law's family members and friends.I could feel the pain of their grief when they were crying out loud. Tearing was my only way to show that I was mourning with them too. I was speechless in comforting them. I just felt that they need to cry instead of holding back, so did I.

Then Saturday came. Joyful tear this time when I witnessed Jeffrey cried at the church while he was standing there in the chapel as his wife walked towards him. Jeffrey is like a perfect son in law to all the Malaysian friends who have daughters, that included me too of course. Pity that Jeffrey and my girls are like brother and sisters because they grew up together in Sweden. Our family hanged out a lot with Agnes' family when our children were small. So, there you go, Jeffrey, we are so happy for you that you have found your love, Kathy.

So to sum up last week's emotions:

From tearful, pained, mournful, a sense of loss, doubtful, worried to

HAPPY, GREAT, GLEEFUL, EXCITING, ECSTATIC, SATISFIED (my baking turned up well :P)

This week's homework is to get rid of the unpleasant feelings and KEEP ON the pleasant feelings, YES!

Mona

这两个星期的心情起伏不定得很厉害，不晓得为什么？

或许是因为一个我最敬爱的瑞典朋友Mona三个星期前进了医院，医生跟她做了一个大手术，因为她的大动脉出了问题（我也不晓得中文该怎么叫），结果手续后，她在ICU昏迷了一个星期， 在生死边缘。我很早以前就把她当着是我在瑞典的妈妈，并且一直希望有一天她和我妈妈有机会见个面，但是，这次我可不希望她们会见面，还不是时候。还好过了一个星期后她醒过来了。


我以为我可以渐渐地忘了那年在医院里陪妈妈到目睹她断气的日子，但是这两个星期进出医院探访Mona，让我无法挥走那些在脑海里的画面。尤其是Mona醒后的第一个星期，还不能吃东西，让我替她担心。我以为经过妈妈的事后，这几年我己经懂得看开生老病死的事，原来我还没有!

Mona是我以前的好邻居，也是我小女儿小时候的好保姆，如果没有她和她老公的帮忙看顾，早期的我在瑞典真的不知道该怎么办了。妹妹从两岁开始就在每个周末过去Mona家过夜。我们没有回去家乡的夏天，他们就会把妹妹带到他们的夏天小屋一个月。虽然没见到妹妹一个月，但我可是非常放心的。Mona和Stig把妹妹当着像他们的孩子/孙女一样看待，疼得不得了。后来我才知道原来Mona年轻的时候，曾经是我们住的那个区的幼儿托儿所的妈妈。Mona常说，妹妹是她最后一个照顾的托儿所宝宝。能在人生地不熟的异乡，幸运地跟善良的Mona和Stig做了17年的邻居，是我和孩子们的福气。

欣慰的是，本来就挺壮的Mona恢复得好快，今天下午她已经出院了，真替她开心！

"Jag älskar Dig, Kära Mona!" (我爱你，亲爱的Mona!）

你幸福吗？

今天我从面子书上转借了以下的智慧和大家分享。希望你们的生命中早已经有了这五个人，而且还继续你们之间的關係，读完这五段有关这五个人的特征和他们和你的關係，不妨问问你自己一下我今天的主题，好吗？

【一生中要珍惜的五個人 】

我們一生當中最需要珍惜的五種人~

1、世界上有一個人，和你在一起的時候，
總是千萬次囑咐要多穿件衣服，要注意安全，

你覺得很煩人，卻也覺得很溫暖。
沒錢的時候，他總會說些賺錢不易之類的話來訓你，邊教訓，邊塞錢給你。
這個人，叫做父母。

2、世界上有一個人，
和你在一起時候，
偶爾會和你打架，偶爾會和你鬥嘴。
他壞到總是搶你點心，總是向父母打小報告，
但也總是愛護你比誰都多，你們有最親密，最親密的關係。
這個人，叫手足。

3、世界上有一個人，
不見面的時候會一直惦記著他，見面時卻又臉紅心跳，
什麼話都說不出口。他總是輕易地把你心揪住，
讓你無法忘懷，也能讓你胡思亂想睡不好覺，
但你仍然甘之如飴。他是你最甜蜜，最甜蜜的負荷。
這個人，叫做戀人。

4、世界上有一個人，
知道你一些不為人知的小秘密，
犯錯的時候，他幫著你找理由；
暗戀一個人的時候，他幫你傳話；
和戀人吵架時候，你一定會哭著跑去找他。
你很抱歉，你總是麻煩來到時才想到他，
但你很慶幸生命中出現了這麼好的一個人。
也許你們在一起的日子，走得比戀人還要長久。
這個人，叫做朋友。

5、世界上有一個人，
總是在父母保護下成長，
在手足關係中定位自己，
在戀人呵護中找到真愛，在朋友關心中得到溫暖。
你知道這些人經過了你的生命，也豐富了你的一生。
你謝謝他們帶給你的一切，卻又總是說不出口。
這個人，就是自己。

一直以為幸福在遠方，在可以追逐的未來。
我雙眼保持著眺望，我雙耳仔細地聆聽，唯恐疏忽錯過。
後來才發現，那些和我握過手，唱過歌，流過淚，愛過的人。

所謂曾經，就是幸福．．．．．．

A meaningful friendship is never too much

It all started when I volunteered myself to work for the Red Cross's Friendship Service last year. Why did I do that?

Witnessing my mother's death three years ago has influenced my point of view about life. To watch the life energy gradually ran out and the life light gradually turned off, and then towards the end it was only the electronic waves that stayed on a straight line, and the piping sound from the respirator that confirmed the end of my mom's journey. The whole experience has affected my perception of life and death.


Today I am an orphan. I no longer get another chance to learn much more about life from my parents, but their wise wisdom stay in my heart for ever.

There are many lonely and old people who need someone to listen to their life experiences. To me, older people is like a living history book that I have much to learn from. So, I signed up for the Red Cross course and became their volunteer.

I am lucky I got to meet a 96 year old lady who has so much to tell about herself, and she has promised to share with me her wisdom. In return, I'll start blogging in Swedish. So,  finally I have the guts to start writing a blog in Swedish. I will try to translate it into English and paste them here whenever I have time to do it. Otherwise you can read it at www.livetvid96.blogspot.com too. I guess the Google translate tools or other similar translate tool can help up with the translation :). The blog is about her wisdom which you and I can have the benefit of , and who know may be we are able to use them throughout our lives, and if we're lucky, maybe until we are 96 years old!

Life is good!