再谈太阳和月亮 :D

昨天的天气太奇怪了。。一早太阳明媚地把大地照耀到让人的眼睛睁不开来。。。人人都往外去了。可是天气好冷，在零下几度。太阳一直让人兴奋到下午五点钟左右，在下山之前还很明亮。可是我刚好向房间的窗外一望(我家的房间都向西的 )，外面的光线忽然阴暗下来。我禁不住走向窗口看个究竟，我被窗外的奇观吸引住了！

一阵一阵的迷雾忽然开始形成，而且慢慢地开始弥漫着整个天空。太阳也在做最后的挣扎，还想在下山前把它最后的光芒散发天空，在那迷蒙稀薄的烟雾和隐隐约约的光辉之间，我看到了白灰色的月亮! 它就躲在太阳的后面。后来当太阳在完全被开始变浓的烟雾遮掩之前，它余剩的光影反射在月亮上，把月亮的整个轮廓照得更白了。

第一张

第二张

我看到发呆了，差点忘了我最爱做的事，拿相机。可是找不着它，只好用手机拍。还好可以拍到一点点，这整个过程只是在那短短的5分钟，过后月亮也被越来越浓的烟雾给淹没了。。好过没有啦，在此分享 :D

P.S。 有个面子书的朋友觉得那是我的错觉，他说这其实还是太阳，不是月亮。你说呢?
或许他是对的，我不知道，因为我不是天文学家, 我不这道太阳和月亮有可能那么接近吗？我只是能把我看到的感觉和视觉形容一下，独乐乐不如众乐乐。或许我可以问问一个老朋友的老公，他在美国的NASA工作。

太阳和月亮

前晚半夜睡不着，凌晨五点钟起来看Oscar颁奖礼。美国播放这个节目的时间，就是瑞典的半夜两三点了。。我越看越兴奋，原因当然是李安拿了大奖！真的替他开心。开心到无法再回去睡。老公起来上厕所，见到我没睡，就和我一起看。结果真的是看到六点。之间有太多的广告，好讨厌。

而我的老朋友也已渐渐发亮，在天的一边露出一片隐约的光芒。我不禁想出去吃早餐晒晒太阳。所以就出去了。回来后呼噜呼噜地睡到下午六点钟才起来。太阳早就回去睡觉了，哪像我有那么日夜颠倒的作息。

不过，取代它的是另一位温柔的好朋友。让我可以不眨眼地凝望着的。。

昨夜的月亮又园又大，明亮的有点刺眼，但是美丽到我不知该怎么形容了。可惜像平常一样，无法把它捕捉在镜头里。只能遥望着它，让想象的脑细胞开始夜游。。想象如果我可以像传说中的嫦娥奔月，上到月球游玩一下，多好。。要不然像太空人Amstrong有机会到月球上走一趟，多威风，享受历史的一刻。。想。。可能是对着月光太久了，有点神游了。。不晓得做不成嫦娥，做不成Amstrong, 我会不会变成狼人。。哎呀。。都是看太多Twilight惹出来的幻觉。。。

回到现实的我吧。 今天好开心，因为拍到几张自己喜欢的照片。感恩我今天又有机会享受大自然的美！

我的最爱之一

昨夜的客人来多了，也比较兴奋了些。。唱了很多他们喜欢的呐喊摇滚音乐，当他们带着兴致勃勃和开心的心情离开后，留下的是一些漏泄满地的啤酒，和两个打破的玻璃杯和蜡烛杯。说真的我的客人已经是最好的了，像这样的情况，其实也很少发生。不过，还是要费一般功夫把整个餐馆弄干净才能回家。

在喧嚷热闹后，留下的是空荡荡和寂静的空气， 而在这两个小时打扫的时光里，我最不能缺少的就是我的最爱 - 蔡琴。谢谢小琪留下那么多蔡琴的CD给我。我都把它们带回来陪伴我了。我不喜欢用MP3player来听。我还是喜欢用普通的音响系统，一边慢慢地打扫，一边陶醉在蔡琴那磁性和懒洋洋的歌声，弥漫着整个餐馆的空间中，这是最能放松之前工作的压力和紧张。

我选了「午夜場」這張1995蔡琴所推出的專輯。那时我已经来了瑞典五年。已开始和蔡琴脱节。那时上网听歌还是不可能的事，我只能在回去马来西亚时，等朋友介绍我时，我才有可能会买一些卡带回来。卡带没错。我买不起CD,对那时的我来说太贵了。我的闲钱只能用来买孩子的东西，不敢乱花钱买自己喜爱的东西，包括我的最爱。谢谢琪我现在终于拥有了这张專輯。

在夜阑人静的空间中听着这首开头曲，感慨万分。。

點亮霓虹燈

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZLMbuKDgJu4

演唱：蔡琴
作詞：林秋離／作曲：黃國倫

總是面對過那些令人很難堪的事 (太多了...)
才明白人間的聚散 是不能全放在心上 (是真的...)
你說的愛不難 不代表可以簡單 說忘就忘 (忘不了...)

總是面對過任何時間都偽裝的人 (见多了。。。 )
那謊言如此的明顯 卻滿足了情的弱點 (太可怕。。。  )
教人心甘情願 將自己陷在裡面 不顧危險  ( 太幼稚。。。  )

點亮霓虹燈 粉刷著黑夜不會那麼深  (不会那么害怕和孤单。。。  )
縱然心已冷 也把愛當作真  ( 已经太累所以不当一回事了。。。 )
點亮霓虹燈 疲倦的眼神不會那樣沉  (不想在黑暗中沉睡不醒。。。  )
我的夢依然在紅塵中翻滾 ( 所以还是选择在现实中作梦。。。 )

總是面對過任何時間都偽裝的人
那謊言如此的明顯 卻滿足了情的弱點
教人心甘情願 將自己陷在裡面 不顧危險

點亮霓虹燈 粉刷著黑夜不會那麼深
縱然心已冷 也把愛當作真
點亮霓虹燈 疲倦的眼神不會那樣沉
我的夢依然在紅塵中翻滾 

點亮霓虹燈 粉刷著黑夜不會那麼深
縱然心已冷 也把愛當作真
點亮霓虹燈 疲倦的眼神不會那樣沉
我的夢依然在紅塵中翻滾 在紅塵中翻滾

( 蔡琴-午夜場 專輯 )

Condensed memory

I have moved my journal pages to a new blog. http://condensedmemory.blogspot.se  for easy reading and follow up...

Now  when I am rereading them and writing them into English, I have noticed that my mind was kind of mess up sometimes or I must be very tired when I wrote them because my Chinese was terrible, in the grammar and the handwriting.

There are many Chinese words have been used  in the wrong way, sometimes the grammar was wrong. Sometime I left out some words because I forgot how to write them. At that time I was just writing and writing at the nights before I went to sleep. Sometimes I was in a good mood and you can notice that from my beautiful Chinese handwriting. Sometimes the words were so bad that I myself cannot understand what I have written. That was time when I was too tired or too frustrated to write. Sometime the things that happened in that day were not written according to their correct order because I just wrote whatever was stored in my memories first, or whatever came into my mind first. There are stuff that don't make sense to you...but it did to me, at the time I wrote it.

Well, I was not writing a perfect story book or an assignment paper to get a A+ for it. A diary should has it's original thoughts and lines that show it's pureness, right? That was the whole point of it when I started writing this diary - to note down what had happened and my feeling.

I am trying my best to keep the English version as closed to the Chinese version. So, feel free to follow me on the journey into my condensed memories.

I hope my girls will understand how I felt and the experiences I have been through that three months....

新年的喜悦

今年总共收到了两张农历新年贺年片，好开心，好过一张都没有，对不对？

读小学和中学的时候，新年寄贺年片是最流行的。我把一些贺年片收藏着，都把它们带回来瑞典了。太怀念那段期待谁会寄卡给我的日子了！那时候有一些喜欢我的男孩，每年都不会忘记他们喜欢的清萍。

那时候的我们，纯纯的，可爱的不得了。男孩们那种欲说还休，暧昧的，含羞的，隐隐的爱意，都写在卡上了，让我的心花朵朵开，乐得享受被人仰慕，被人偷偷地爱着的感觉。但是我可都向这些男孩表面，我们只能做普通朋友，别期望太高。毕竟，那时候的我，可爱又飘逸，柔柔像个不吃人间烟火的小仙女，当然可以吊高起来卖。哪像现在这个进入中年的模样，面皮开始下垂，有着熊猫的黑眼圈，脸上的光彩已变成了阴暗，蛮腰变成了水桶，小仙女已变成老巫婆，别说吊高起来，就算摆在市场中，男人走过都不会看一眼了。。。

对不起，离题了。。无法控制思潮的起伏。我说到哪里呢? 对了，要回到现代了。现在的我们，收到的是SMS的，E-CARD的，FACEBOOK的，卡通的，YOUTUBE的祝福。说实在的，真的还是缺少了那种把卡拿在手中时感觉。从打开信封，把卡拿出来，让那红里透着金光闪闪的刺眼的贺词，浮现在你眼前，然后打开卡片，感觉到我下垂的脸颊渐渐地被微笑拉上去，一边读着卡上的祝语，一边享受卡片带给我的喜悦。

所以，除了要谢谢那些让我开心的现代化的祝语，我更要特别在此谢谢那俩位寄卡给我的人 。 新加波的好友 - 月瑶， 和可爱的外甥女 - 琪琪。谢谢你们让我在寒冷的年初一感到温暖！

My Valentine

I always believe, if you love someone, everyday can be a Valentine's Day, if  you give love and care to that person. You don't have to wait until the 14th of February to tell the person you love him/her. Showing that person your love and care everyday will mean more than a bouquet of 100 or 1000 roses, more that a box of overpriced chocolate.

To me, today is just another ordinary day I miss all the people I have loved, and people that I still love.

When Mabel and Julie were young, they used to make valentine cards for me. Their school  teacher always taught them to make cards to cheer up their parents during special days, and Valentine's Day was one of those days. Especially Mabel, who is creative and loves to play with colors, already made very nice cards when she was young. All their cards always cheered me up. I couldn't find any of Julie's card in the house because they were packed in the basement when we moved here. Julie didn't like to make card as much as Mabel did.

I remembered Mabel and I made a few of these together at home. Mona got one too.

As the years gone by, and I forgot from which year, I didn't get cards from them anymore. I feel kind of lost for not receiving cards from them anymore, especially Mabel,  but I do understand why she stopped doing that. I guess this is part of the growing up process. She priorities other stuff in her life -  the school homework, friends, boy friends, exams, games. Making cards was one of her childhood's hobby. I feel it is such a waste she didn't continue doing that anymore. That's why I precious them so much. Since that today is this day, I would like to share two of Mabel's cards here with you, the love that still touch my heart every time I hold them in my hands. I love you too Mabel!

Mabel  used one of them to give it to me

If I am not wrong, Mabel made this in primary school and this is still one of my favorite candle holders at home.

I always forgot to mark the date when I received  cards..really regret now.

So adorable, right?

So dear daughters, dear friends, dear cousins and dear readers. Thanks for being there in my life, thanks for sharing thoughts of your life, thanks for your support and thanks for guiding me along the way. My life will be bored and meaningless without your loves, your cares and friendship. Love YOU ALL too!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! 

白色的喜悦

下雪前的景色

几年前在一个机缘下认识了来自中国大联的雅琴。她嫁给了可爱的瑞典人NICKLAS，住在哥德堡外的一个小镇，过着幸福的日子。她生了两个可爱漂亮的女儿，Elin就快两岁了，Elie才五个月大。我偶尔会到他们家去逗逗两个小不点，回味一下顾小孩的乐趣。当年我换尿布，擦便便，说童言的甜酸苦辣的日子已离我太远，所以过来和他们凑凑热闹，体验一下当年左一个哭着要抱，右一个要哭要睡的滋味也蛮不错，我还可以趁机享受一下郊外的美景和宁静，和享受雅琴拿手的北方饺子。

因着我最近到雅琴家过夜的次数频繁，我老公竟然怀疑我是不是还要生小孩。我反问他，你要吗？当然不要啦，他说。我说，我更不要嘞！要自找麻烦吗？我可不否认我是非常喜欢小孩，但是从头来过我可没那个精力了啦。我看到雅琴的情况我可也跟她觉得累得很呢。跟她的Elin跑两下，我已累得气呼呼的，而Elin还在那儿说阿姨追我！阿姨追我！所以说，别搞我了。我跟雅琴说，她的小不点们好玩的时候，我就可以帮她看看，不好玩的时候，开始哭闹的时候我就把她们还给她了。 阿姨没力气，没耐心，也没有奶来哄她们嘛！


上个星期天到她那两天，第一天的上午下了一阵大雪，整个大地美得冒泡，感觉到了不吃人间烟火的境界。可惜我的相机无法把那个感觉捕捉下来。。。可是我好兴奋，学人在雪地上做天使，我叫Elin跟我做，她给了我一个质疑的眼光，摇摇头, 她可能在想这个阿姨怪怪的，干嘛要在那么冷的地上躺着，我才不干呢！

要玩雪球吗？

我忽然好想也要在郊外买个小小的房子，过过朴素的田园生活。反正我并不喜欢高楼大厦的丛林。要想办法说服老公把饭店卖掉，才可以实现这个梦想。

老二喜欢在摇晃的宝宝车里睡

针叶林

后院的树上吊着小鸟屋