Why time has to pass by so quickly? It is so fast that sometimes you don't even has enough time to take a deep breath to deal with your endless variations of mood. Especially a person like me that don't really fully use up my 24 hours, don't really like to schedule every single thing I do everyday. Please don't get me wrong though, I am in the matter of fact a 95% puncture person. (Sometimes that 5% is not controlled by me due to other person, or traffic).
I am just a kind of arbitrary person. When my personal stuff is concerned, I am just doing things impulsively than planning two or three months ahead, well, this was also part of the reason why I ended up in Sweden. If I have thought twice or many times, I might have stayed back in Malaysia for good instead.
However I have been very good in planning my time last week. It was a very busy week, and also a mood swinging week. One funeral and one wedding in the same week. A sentimental person like me didn't really had enough time to deal with the mood changing.
Sadly my sister in law's mother, who I have known her for over 15 years passed away on the 4th of May. In Sweden it normally takes 2 weeks for the preparation of holding a funeral. So in grieving over this beloved elderly's death, at the same time I was excited over one of my good Malaysian friend, Agnes, her son, Jeffrey's wedding. My Malaysian group and my girls were so excited and have been waited patiently for Jeffrey's big day which was already planned and date-fixed one year ago!
So, I was so worry that the funeral would have been fall on the same day as Jeffrey's wedding day. Then I would have to choose which one to attend. If I attended the funeral then I no longer could go to the wedding due to the Chinese superstitious since both families (sister in law and my good friend) are Chinese.
Thank goodness it was not the same day but still in the same week. That was good so I didn't have to make a choice! (I hate making choices although we always have to make choices everyday in life)
The funeral brought back all my memory about my mom's funeral last Thursday. The mourning atmosphere filled the church among my sister in law's family members and friends.I could feel the pain of their grief when they were crying out loud. Tearing was my only way to show that I was mourning with them too. I was speechless in comforting them. I just felt that they need to cry instead of holding back, so did I.
Then Saturday came. Joyful tear this time when I witnessed Jeffrey cried at the church while he was standing there in the chapel as his wife walked towards him. Jeffrey is like a perfect son in law to all the Malaysian friends who have daughters, that included me too of course. Pity that Jeffrey and my girls are like brother and sisters because they grew up together in Sweden. Our family hanged out a lot with Agnes' family when our children were small. So, there you go, Jeffrey, we are so happy for you that you have found your love, Kathy.
So to sum up last week's emotions:
From tearful, pained, mournful, a sense of loss, doubtful, worried to
HAPPY, GREAT, GLEEFUL, EXCITING, ECSTATIC, SATISFIED (my baking turned up well :P)
This week's homework is to get rid of the unpleasant feelings and KEEP ON the pleasant feelings, YES!
I am just a kind of arbitrary person. When my personal stuff is concerned, I am just doing things impulsively than planning two or three months ahead, well, this was also part of the reason why I ended up in Sweden. If I have thought twice or many times, I might have stayed back in Malaysia for good instead.
However I have been very good in planning my time last week. It was a very busy week, and also a mood swinging week. One funeral and one wedding in the same week. A sentimental person like me didn't really had enough time to deal with the mood changing.
Sadly my sister in law's mother, who I have known her for over 15 years passed away on the 4th of May. In Sweden it normally takes 2 weeks for the preparation of holding a funeral. So in grieving over this beloved elderly's death, at the same time I was excited over one of my good Malaysian friend, Agnes, her son, Jeffrey's wedding. My Malaysian group and my girls were so excited and have been waited patiently for Jeffrey's big day which was already planned and date-fixed one year ago!
So, I was so worry that the funeral would have been fall on the same day as Jeffrey's wedding day. Then I would have to choose which one to attend. If I attended the funeral then I no longer could go to the wedding due to the Chinese superstitious since both families (sister in law and my good friend) are Chinese.
Thank goodness it was not the same day but still in the same week. That was good so I didn't have to make a choice! (I hate making choices although we always have to make choices everyday in life)
The funeral brought back all my memory about my mom's funeral last Thursday. The mourning atmosphere filled the church among my sister in law's family members and friends.I could feel the pain of their grief when they were crying out loud. Tearing was my only way to show that I was mourning with them too. I was speechless in comforting them. I just felt that they need to cry instead of holding back, so did I.
Then Saturday came. Joyful tear this time when I witnessed Jeffrey cried at the church while he was standing there in the chapel as his wife walked towards him. Jeffrey is like a perfect son in law to all the Malaysian friends who have daughters, that included me too of course. Pity that Jeffrey and my girls are like brother and sisters because they grew up together in Sweden. Our family hanged out a lot with Agnes' family when our children were small. So, there you go, Jeffrey, we are so happy for you that you have found your love, Kathy.
So to sum up last week's emotions:
From tearful, pained, mournful, a sense of loss, doubtful, worried to
HAPPY, GREAT, GLEEFUL, EXCITING, ECSTATIC, SATISFIED (my baking turned up well :P)
This week's homework is to get rid of the unpleasant feelings and KEEP ON the pleasant feelings, YES!
