28-07-2012 and 29-07-2012

Day 6  Saturday 28.07.2012

Helen came to Sunny's house to bring me for breakfast, and then we went to her place for durian. Sad to  know about her mum's situation hope that her mother will recover very soon.

Still couldn't sleep tied at night... Jiu Mu's (Sunny's mother) sleepless night influenced me.  I am also very worried about her health condition.

Day 7  Sunday  29.07.2012

Went for lunch with Lisa's family and Johnny's family. I found out that the past 14 months they didn't met up at all. I am glad because of me everyone find their time to get together.
I was really happy now we all have times to be together and having fun with the chitchat and laughing!
Johnny brought us to a restaurant for roasted duck, which is owned by his friend.
Johnny's treat! Thanks Johnny :)

At night I have Mary took care of my dinner. She is really very good in what she is doing. I really admire her abilities and her success in her business.  I hope she takes good care of her health though....

25/7/2012 - 26/7/2012

Day 4       Wednesday

Cita came early in the morning and she cleaned up all the bathrooms - spotless, how nice!

While looking at the house spotless and as clean as always like the old time, I thought of mum would be  very pleased to see this! Unfortunately we killed a few spiders, sorry....

The husband to the aunty from Taiwan who stayed at the back of our house got lung cancer and was admitted to the ICU in the hospital. She was upset and indecisive, just like me for 14 months ago, I totally understand her feelings and and I hope that uncle will recover soon...

AnQi came for a visit in the evening. She bought fried mee for me. She is also moving soon.

At night the couple who wants to buy my house came. The moment of facing the reality. I really hope that mum would understand why I want to sell the house. I cannot rely on my cousin brothers and sisters to take care of the house for me all the time. Everyone has their own life to busy with, how could they always help me then?

I am really angry why a house that facing a road is hard to be sold out? It's scary how the belief of custom and Feng Shui is baffling people's mind!

Day 5 Thursday

Overnight at Sunny's house. Chlóe has grown up much, a bit more mature, so cute!

2012年7月24日

Day 3  Tuesday

Life without a few hours computer time after 3 days here was actually not that bad. Actually what I need to have a computer is for checking my e-mails only. Fortunately Sunny drove me to his boss's house to check mails and that was enough.

There is far too much dust at home, tomorrow I am going to ask the maid "Ah Hei" to come and clean up.

Lao Da (Sunny) didn't overnight here tonight. Finally I got the chance to unpack my luggage.

* The following part was written the next day..cause I was in a little chock and had a weird feeling and too tired to write that night...

While I was unpacking, I hanged a small plastic bag on a hanger but then it was blown away by the fan and ended up under the dusty bed. I took a look down there. Due to my fear to dust allergy I dared not took it out from there, so I decided to leave it there. I turned back and continued unpacking other stuff , and I tied another small plastic bag to the rope near the wall. Actually I was thinking of using these small plastic bag as a dustbin.

After a while when I was thinking to throw away some small papers and turned myself to the second plastic, I was the first plastic bag was hanged back nicely at the hanger. I thought back and  really didn't pick up the first plastic bag...

Mum really came back to see me but I wasn't afraid at all, kind of weird. After all she didn't have the intention to scare me, she just wanted to help out...

2012年7月23日

Day 2  Monday 

We went to visit the third aunty (my mum's third brother's wife) first, then we went to "bai bai" dad and mum.

Outside the temple Zheng Jue Lin,  I suppressed my feeling while I was walking into the temple. Mum and dad should know I am back here. 

Because we went to Johnny's place, and then did some errands at other places after we left the temple, and when we reached home, surprising we saw the key chain was hanged at the outside of the middle gate. Sunny insisted he locked the key chain at the inside of the gate when we left the house this morning. This was one of the routine/regulations set by mum to everyone who has stayed in our house. I called around and asked everyone who has our house keys, and nobody has been there when we were out.. so that must be mum's way of welcoming me home then..

Sunny said the same thing too..

We went to buy durians in the evening. Sunny wanted to eat the best quality one, so we ended up bought home three good variety of durians (total 60 ringgits) , they were sooo yammy that I couldn't forget the taste in my mouth! 

Durian with heart shapes, so cool！

2012年7月22日

Day 1 Sunday 2012.07.22

After one year and two months, finally I am back to my old house again, as if I had a dream. The return of this trip brought along with me another kind of feeling.

Sunny offered to stay back to keep me company. Well, better that way, otherwise I don't know how to spend this night.

The first thing to do tomorrow morning is to go and "bai bai" dad and mum, and tell them I have sold the house...but I don't know how should I tell them?

Well it seems like I should get a good sleep instead... I really have to pack this time...

日记

中学时超爱写写东写写西的打发时间和发泄情绪， 但是我从来都不写日记。没那个耐心，也觉得哪有那么多天天可以发牢骚的东西写。来到瑞典后的日子是在忙着扮演妈妈，工人，老婆的角色中度过的，连以前的爱好都放弃了，更不用说写什么日记。说实在，现在我有时会后悔没有养成写日记的习惯，好多记忆里的事务都模糊了， 有时只能靠照片和孩子们所记得的事情来唤起回忆。

很多人都认为搬家和卖屋子是我们人生里的其中一件大事。那倒是的。是一个要下很大决心去做的事。所以轮到我五个月前，必须要面对卖掉爸妈留给我的屋子的抉择时，我天生不能拿定主意的性格一直左右着我，让我好烦躁，再加上身边一些左右我做决定的干扰，让我更加不能做决定。还好，我最终能定下心情，问问我心里要的是什么，所以下了决心买了机票飞回去老家，开始我三个月的收拾，收拾妈妈留下来的杂物和纪念品，和整理我一直没带过来瑞典的东西，里面有我童年和少女青春期的梦和回忆。

为了让我的女儿以后了解我这三个月的心情，如果她们有兴趣知道的话，再加上发觉自己的记忆力越来越差，我又下了另一个决心， 一定要把这三个月的过程记录下来。

我做到了！有些是当天晚上睡觉前写的，有些是过了几天才写的。但都是每一天的记录。

只是有些的记忆只适合留在我的脑海中，不能分享的秘密只能自己一个人知道。

忙吗? 还好..

真的是太没劲了，十月回来到现在，就一直在忙，忙到忘了我这块小天地。。

忙什么自己也说不出来，总之就是一直让时间在做以下的事中溜过去了(除了我周末的工作) 。。。

1. 睡觉
不晓得为什么，从马来西亚回来到现在，每天都想睡觉。但却睡不好，所以每天就想睡

2. 玩手机
我是迟上手的smartphone粉丝。多谢我表哥送我一个，让我开始中毒了。我就知道会中毒，所以迟迟不敢买一个，他不知道我的有潜意识会上玩游戏的瘾，所以买了一个给我玩。这下惨了，我不能睡的时候就玩游戏。这个应该是造成第一个原因的原因之一吧。

3. 上面子书
不能怪我，要怪第二个的原因。 有了智能手机，有拍照狂的我不能自拔地常常要把最新拍到的东西和大家分享。 结果这个也应该是造成第一个原因的原因之一吧。

4. 见朋友喝茶聊天
这是我每次从马来西亚回来后一定要做的事，不然对不起朋友和我自己。

4. 收拾
三个月不在家，厨房又变回我老公的回收station。客厅变成他第二个要开始的垃圾房了。妹妹搬出去后留下房间的东西需要整理。然后从马来西亚寄回来的十一箱东西也到了，所以收拾成了我回来后几乎每天都在做的事，(叫老公收拾他自己的东西没有什么进展，下个星期要和他摊牌了)， 做到生气烦时，就放下一切，忙回上面1，2，3 和4 的事。

要好好调整一下生活了，不能再这样下去。。。现在就去梦中想一想，该怎么做..